Tuesday, September 30, 2014

A Letter to the Littles

Dear Littles,

I love this age that you are in. You both are overflowing with personality and love for each other.(most of the time) (Although you fight) (And the fights are really bad)

Bekah, I love that you call Morgan, "Sweetie."  It's always, "Have you seen my Sweetie" "Oh be careful Sweetie."

And you also like to be referred to as "Bekah Bahn." Sometimes you'll call out "Mommy" to which I respond "What-y?" and you get so angry to which you say "My name is not Woody it's Bekah Bahn."

You changed your name last week, though. As we were all watching the voice you stood in front of the TV and said "Hello my name is Nay-Nay, now listen to me sing." The next day you said, "You can call me Bekah or you can call me Nay-Nay or Bekah Princess." It's all about Princesses around here.

You're a great big sister and a pretty awesome little sister - even when you get on Shelby's nerves.

And Morgan (or should I say Sweetie) you are always smiling and always getting into things. You have no fear what so ever. (except for loud noises like when  blowing up balloons with a helium tank, but I get that).

You want to be big (meaning be three like Bekah) so bad. You do everything she does including climbing on everything - EVERYTHING. You are always laughing, always smiling and I can't wait for your babbling to make sense to us. You have a lot to say. 

I think you two came into my life at the most perfect time. I'm relaxed, I know the importance of spending time with you and I don't sweat the small stuff like you matching all the time. (Or even wearing clothes)

Monday, September 29, 2014

We Have a Teenager

While I wasn't writing, Shelby turned 13. My parents were in town, so we had them and Matt's parents over for a small party. Shelby requested bar-b-que to which my father bought enough to feed our neighborhood - I still have some in the freezer.

 Bekah helped her sister read cards and open presents. She was so excited.

 We bought Shelby an iphone which I wrapped in three or four boxes to make it more exciting.

 Shelby decided she wanted cheesecake and she didn't want me to make it - meh.

Then the selfie taking began

And now I get daily pictures like these

Thirteen years have flown by. Raising a teenager has it's challenges, but I love her so much and have been so blessed by her.

Sunday, September 28, 2014

In My Living Room

I plan to start writing again. Tonight as I read through all my favorite blogs catching up, reading things I missed like divorces and births this was happening. 

Over and over again. 

Tuesday, August 26, 2014

8th Grade

8th Grade? Really? Can I have a moment to let it sink in that I not only have an 8th grader, but in a few weeks I'll have a teenager?!? Where has the time gone.

We decided at the end of the school year that we would not continue with online, public school and Shelby would go back to a regular brink and mortar public school. Even though the experience was good and it was a great bonding time for Shelby and I, we found it just wasn't for us.

I took Shelby last week to get her schedule, find her locker and have a look around her new school. It's huge. Lots of halls, lots or classes and tons of kids.

I restrained myself from walking up to everyone we saw and say "This is Shelby. She's new this year. She's really sweet. Will you be her friend?" I've been in her shoes more times then I'd like to count. Moving schools in Junior High and High School stinks, but I survived and she will, too.

Shelby got to start school at day later than everyone else because she spent Sunday night in North Texas at the One Direction concert with her stepmother.

She had a blast! She wouldn't stop talking about it yesterday.

So, today she was a bit tired, moving slow and had some attitude, so here is the first picture I got this morning.

I made her smile before we would leave...still not great, but at least I have the picture.

And course...let's look back at how much she's grown.


1st Grade

2nd Grade

3rd grade. I wish she was always this excited on the 1st day!

4th Grade

5th Grade

6th Grade

7th Grade

Monday, August 18, 2014

I Can't Help But Notice You Seem A Little at War with Yourself

Matt posted the following on Facebook this morning, so I feel like I can now share my feelings (which are no secret to Matt) about this new chapter in our lives.

From Matt's facebook

What an amazing Monday! For those of you that don't know, I quit my job on Friday and today begins the search for new direction. Things are a little crazy around here right now, but God is good and I know He will continue to watch over my family throughout this time.

The past few days have been a bit odd to say the least. 

Let me start by saying. I knew Matt was going to quit his job and I gave Matt my blessing to quit his job. 

The past 10 months have not been the best for Matt and I, but  are by no means on the verge of anything that would break us apart. Ten months ago Matt accepted a job in Houston which left me in North Texas for an extended period of time while we sold the house. I was relieved when the house sold and the girls and I were able to move to Houston to be with Matt, but it seems since we have been here we've seen him less than before. 

A normal week would be seeing Matt for a few hours on Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday. Then, he would go to work Thursday morning and the girls would not see him again until Saturday afternoon. Normally, Matt would leave the house by 6 am and on some (lately most) nights would not come home until 11 pm or Midnight. When he was home he was physically and mentally tired.

I had come to terms with this because this is what Matt did for a living and this is what kept a roof over our heads, so I sucked it up...sometimes with more drama then others and did what I could to support Matt.  

During the last few months Matt's job had become less and less rewarding to him, so he resigned last Friday. 

Want to know what it feels like to be me these days? Have you ever seen Tangled? 

I am bit like 

This is going to be so great! Oh my goodness what have you done? It's going to be so good to have you at home more! Holy Cow! How are we going to keep the lights on? 

This scene plays in my head lately

Let's talk about anxiety for a moment...I think my friend Laura had the best response to Matt's post because I know she was talking to me when she said, "Wow, prayers for all of you to keep quiet heart and anxiety at bay during this time."

Having your husband quit is job five months after buying a new house in a new city can quite possibly make a normal person without anxiety a bit nervous. I am not normal and I do have anxiety. And yes, I pray about it. I've got Philippians 4:6-7 memorized and I'm thinking about getting this tattoo once all this is over. My mom is so proud of that last sentence. 

 So, anyway to sum up how I feel about my husband quitting his job...I'm a bit freaked, but I know that God has a plan for him and I'm lucky enough to be along for the ride. This will be okay. It might get rough...not anytime soon, but I love my husband and I am here to support him. I got my blood pressure medicine refilled if your wondering and I'll be dousing myself in antistress essential oils. I plan to help out by growing my Thirty-One business (which has been amazing) and I'll continue to sew because creating helps my soul so much! Things will be fine. 

The past few days have been the happiest in a long time for Matt - I love that. We can do this with God's help and your prayers.

Tuesday, July 8, 2014

Day Two

Today is the second day with just me and these crazies. We really miss Shelby. I miss being able to say things like "can you keep your sisters in the playroom while I vacuum." I know she's have a blast, but we can't wait for her to come home.

I don't want to say that I am struggling with Bekah getting older and independent, but I kind of am. Last night as I was drying off Morgan from her bath Bekah got out of the bathtub with out help grabbed a towel and started drying herself off. "I do it myself."

Then later she was watching a movie in the play room as I dealt with laundry. When I went back into the play I notice she had gotten a new DVD out, switched them and put everything back neatly. She was sitting there watching the new movie. "I watch Shrek now."

I don't like it! Now if I could get this "big girl" attitude to transfer into potty training things would be great!

Monday, July 7, 2014

The Weekend

My Neighbors finally ran out of fireworks. Thank Goodness! They were going strong past midnight on Saturday night, but last night all was quiet on our street - just the way I like it.

It was a semi-busy weekend filled with lots of time in the car and swimming!

On Saturday we dropped Shelby off in Marlin (which is a small town halfway between Houston and Dallas).  She's going to be gone for two weeks and I miss her already! I don't realize how big of a help she actually is to me until she's gone. We will see how her sisters react to her absence also.

On the way back we stopped in a small town called Calvert. I had driven through their quaint downtown so many times, but this is the first time I was able to stop with out the little girls. Matt and I were disappointed that all the cafes were closed on the strip and it seemed there wasn't much life left in the other shops. I'm happy to report I bought nothing, but did come home with a continued fondness of old buildings.

Sunday morning we were up much earlier than normal since Matt was part of the Men's Quartet during both services.

Matt just rolled his eyes I juggled between my phone to video and my cannon. I hear him sing right next to me every Sunday, but this is the first time for him to perform. The excitement was just like having one of my kids in a school performance. I think he was starting to irritated by my "Are you nervous yet?" questioning.

Here is the entire song:

Later in the afternoon he headed to the pool with my friend, Rhonda. The little girls love the water. Morgan spent almost the entire time dunking her face into the water and coming up with a mouth full of water. 

Bekah surprisingly swam with a pool noodle alone (closely monitored by Matt of course).  All of us would love to have a pool of our own, but just are in no mood for the upkeep. 

Last week I worked out five day with my friend, Becky and today I was up at 4:30 for a 5 am class. It feels good to have my exercise scratched off before 6 am. I am sure I will bottom out at some point today, but I am feeling good so far!

I have signed up to work-out 3 days a week for a month. And since I don't want to waste that money by blowing the rest for my day eating M&M's I've decided to get focused! I've also decided to re-vamp SkinnyTart. SkinnyTart was a blog I started when this blog was still called StrawberryTart (so you can see why it's named so). 

I am not going to change the name at this point since I may not post there after my 30 days are up, but my plan is to document the next 30 days of my journey to a healthier me. You can follow along here: http://skinnytart.blogspot.com/