Friday, April 18, 2014

Jesus Calling = A Smack in the Face just When I Need It.

I know many of you have already read the Jesus Calling devotions by Sarah Young, but I'm normally behind the ball. I received this last year for Christmas and I have been kind of off and on with my devotions. This week I've been on and it has brought me moments where I look around my bedroom and think  am I being watched (which I am you know).

So on Tuesday after a day of Should I go back to work, I read this:

Trust me, and don't be afraid. Many things feel out of control. Your routines are not running smoothly. You tend to feel more secure when your life is predictable. Let Me lead you to the rock that is higher that you and your circumstances...

When you are shaken out of you comfortable routines, grip My hand tightly and look for growth opportunity. Instead of bemoaning (had to look that word up:  Bemoaning is motivated when pity or grief is over an event that is joined to a consequence) the loss of your comfort, accept the challenge as something new...

Surely God is my salvation; I will trust and not be afraid. 
The Lord, the Lord, is my strength and my song; he
has become my salvation - Isaiah 12:2

So if that wasn't enough for some major conviction, last night was a major slap in the face!

Let me give you some background. I am some what ashamed to say that I've been doing some serious belly aching about not having TLC and Bravo as a part of new cable plan. Along with the fact I cannot get wireless in my craft-room or in the bedroom. I know...I know...

As I went to bed last night after some major whining about the situation and cracked open my devotional to read this:

I am training you in steadiness. Too many things interrupt your awareness of Me. I know that you live in a world of sight and sound, but you must not be a slave to those stimuli. Awareness of Me can continue in all circumstances, no matter what happens. This is the steadiness I desire for you. 

Don't let unexpected events throw you off course. Rather, respond calmly and confidently, remembering that I am with you. As soon as something grabs your attention, talk with Me about it. Thus I share your joys and your problems; I help you cope with whatever is before you. This is how I live in you and work through you. This is the way of Peace. 

You must not be a slave to those stimuli...how many times have we used the stimuli of this world to cope instead of talking to Jesus? I know I am guilty of it. I love to get lost in other people's lives instead of dealing a coping with the issues at hand in my life. 

Needless to say I woke up this morning with a different outlook on how I fill my day. With the busy weekend ahead I plan to pray often and make sure Jesus is with us during all our Easter celebrations. 

Tuesday, April 15, 2014

The Stay at Home Mom Debate

In a few weeks I will mark my one year anniversary of leaving my full-time job to stay at home with Morgan and Bekah (another full time job). I never thought I'd be having a stay at home mom debate with myself this soon, but this morning as I was unloading the dishwasher I was thinking "should I go back to work?"

I think this was spurred on by two things

First the thought: If we had a second real income (not just my craft and Thirty-One income) then we could do...or we could go...or the girls could have...

Secondly: Yesterday the prior homeowner showed up on my doorstep (an entire blog for another day) and I let her in (I know...). She kept saying "Oh I haven't gotten to that in my new house, but I work". It seemed like every sentence ended with "but I work."

And as she stood there in her work clothes looking all cute I let it affect me probably because I was wearing yoga pants and my hair was in a bun because I hadn't showered. I was holding a crazy baby and looking around the house thinking Why did you have to show up today?

No big lesson from me in the blog entry...I think I am just trying to find my groove. The girls and I need to get out more (somewhere where we don't spend money) and I probably need to shower, get dress and maybe put on some make-up. I prayed to be where I am today and I've done it successfully for a year. This is where I should be...right?

Monday, April 14, 2014

The Great Reset

Can you believe it's been a month?

It's been a month since we packed up three two uhaul trucks and a trailer headed from North Texas to Cypress. A month goes by fast.
Ready to get on the road. I drove the Uhaul in the background


Even though we love our new home this hasn't been the easiest move for anyone - that is why we named it The Reset.
The New House
When we started this endeavor we knew that it would be a big change (hence reset). Even though we are familiar with the area it's still new for us. We left all our friends (and get the oppontunity to make knew ones), Shelby left her family (her dad and family) and we are settling into a new church family. We also started Dave Ramsey (to be wiser with our money), The Daniel Plan bible study (to be wiser with our health) and a Saturday morning group workout (where active "rest" is jumping jacks - ouch). Is it possible to have too much change at once? Probably. If so, we are pushing that line.

But I'm thankful. I spent four month as a single mother of three and that just stunk, so to have my husband in the same house is amazing.

I'm thankful that I am only down to...let me count..looks four boxes in my kitchen compared to 32 pictured above.

I'm thankful for our backyard and that Houston weather hasn't be too awful yet.



The girls love being outside. I love that we have a big tree like we did in North Texas.

The girls are also fully enjoying their playroom. I love we have a place for their toys to explode besides our living room.

The little girls' room is coming along, but just like the other rooms, it still has boxes lining the walls.

We have also been giving potty training a try (again) (not successful yet)

As far as home schooling goes (or online public school)? Eh...I think we are both ready for public school next year.

Well, I better get back to window cling monitoring (since Morgan thinks they are gummy bears) and unpack more boxes. I hope to have this place done soon and write more too.

Saturday, February 8, 2014

A Yearly Rememberence

My plan was to not write today.

I have sat in front of my computer for five minutes with just that sentence on the screen.

I am having a hard day. My patience level is small and I'm snapping at everyone. I am trying to avoid grief. I am trying to avoid writing.

Every year on this date I have written a blog post. I have written to wish my grandmother (My Meme) a happy birthday every year since I started this blog.

I was going to skip it this year, the birthday after her passing, because it didn't feel good. It seems though if  I don't face it, then I don't feel good. Did I tell you how much I despise grief?



Happy Birthday Meme! Today you celebrate your 91st birthday surrounded by your family and loved ones. Today I need to sit and remember that you are now healthy, happy, and the best Mary Elizabeth you've ever been as you rejoice this day in Heaven. Even though my heart breaking here I need to remember the blessing and legacy you left for me.

And that's all I can do...I don't feel it's enough to honor what you've done for me and I am sorry, but this is a hard year for me.

And of course I think a look back with help my heart this afternoon:







Tuesday, February 4, 2014

Day Two

Exhausted...

If I would have written this last night it would probably go something like this

Schooling at Home is great! It's a dream! I have my menu planned (breakfast, lunch and dinner) for the rest of the month, my kitchen is clean and my laundry is done. Total June Cleaver moment.

That was yesterday. The Schooling at Home Honeymoon ended today. I would say my euphoria of how great life is ended around 1 am when Morgan woke up with a stuffy nose. She slept in my bed tossing, turning and being completely frustrated that she had to breathe through her mouth. At one point (around 4 am) I just gave up and starting surfing the internet from my phone. I'm just rambling here...I'm exhausted.

So, I woke up tired. Morning with school went okay, then we ran to target (JAG thinks I go there everyday - he may be right) and had pizza for lunch. After lunch Shelby asked for an hour off to get over her exhaustion from take her reading assessment test this morning. I thought, eh, no big deal since yesterday or school ended around Noon. 

Around 1:30 I realized that may have been a mistake when I printed this off.


Supplementary? Complementary? Huh? What? Did I sleep through this? 

That is when the internal meltdown began. What in the world am I doing? Am I going to ruin Shelby? Will she have to repeat 7th grade? 

My mood feed into her and it led to us bickering and butting heads which finally ended with her saying "I can do it, just get out!" Urgh. You have to understand that since we delayed things an hour that the littles were up from their nap (early of course). So, I had Bekah screaming that her princess crown wasn't fitting and Morgan was a complete snot faucet (sorry...it's true...snot everywhere). So all that and being OVERWHELMED with pre-algebra (which is not what's above - I hope - I still don't know where that fits in). I said, give me a minute. 

I cleaned Morgan up, put her in her chair with some cheerios. Then, I went to my recent Target Dollar Spot stash and pulled out valentine's window clings. I situated Bekah in front of our back door and she had a blast.


Then, since they where occupied I was able to sit down with Shelby. I thought instead of reading, I am going to TEACH. Me! I am going teach! So I took her step by step through a few problems, then left her to do her assignment and assessment. And can I tell you the girl ACED them. We did it! We did it! Yeah! Lo hicimo! We did it! (been watching way too much Dora).



I was so proud of her. She did it. We were both exhausted, but we pulled it off.

So, the lessons I learned today are
I need more sleep
breathe (why is that I have to re-learn all the time)
tackle one thing at a time
And...schooling at home is going to be hard sometimes. Really, really hard and I'll go to be EXHAUSTED, but it so worth it to see the look on Shelby face when she goes from pure confusion to getting it and MASTERING IT!! Woohoo!

Monday, February 3, 2014

Changes

Wow, this is the first post of 2014 and it's already February. Where has the time gone? Oh, yeah we are selling our house, trying to find a new one, I started a new business venture and today we started homeschool (actually public school online).

I am either making the best decision ever or I am adding another session to her future therapy. 

Last week we made the big change.

I withdrew Shelby from a normal brick and mortar public school.

We are now stepping into Online/Virtual learning through K12 Texas Virtual Academy.

I'll let that set in a bit for you.

This is a decision that I have been praying about for a few years now. I never thought we would be able to make it work and to be honest I wasn't ready for the commitment until recently. The upcoming move and recent events at school made right now the perfect time.

Shelby and I have decided to document the journey for you.

Wish us luck! I hope to write more soon.


Tuesday, December 31, 2013

2013 in Review

Here is a pictorial review of 2013. What an awesome year it was!























































































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